I think I'm a jealous person or something. I've been noticing it more and more lately. I'm also feeling like I'm stuck in a system that just doesn't work for me and how I want to live my life. Im jealous because I don't have the things I don't really want. Others having them makes me want things. Whats up with me!

It is also a bit saddening because if I start to want things I never thought I'd care for, who would I be then?