I'm sitting outside the gym a little after 8am, when I'm not a morning workout person. I need to write this before I go inside.
Anxiety/stress is hitting me hard. I kept waking up throughout the night and upon waking up, I couldn't sit still. My stomach is acting up. I don't want to "waste" time at the gym when I could be spending this time working. But there's more than work stressing me out, and I just need to manage it for a few days.
It's a fear. It's about losing something important. Wow, the degree to which I'm stressed might be indicative of something.
And there we go. That realization calms me down [I know what it's indicative of].
Case of facebook induced shitty feeling.
There's enough happening on the family front. Was talking to my cousin in Pakistan about how 2015 really is the year for our family in terms of everything going wrong at the same time. People down with health issues, accidents, deaths and way more.
Moreso, this month. The last two weeks, actually. So much has been happening.
Can't fall asleep now because I'm seriously thinking of lifting heavy at the gym, and fewer reps.
I'm tired of the same old cardio, and low weights, high rep strength training. I'm not seeing any results.
Also, it's too boring for it to stick.
I am now trying to figure out machines that really push you. As much as I enjoy assisted chin ups and inclined push ups, I'm getting bored of them.
I want to see muscle definition to some degree. The functional movements make me feel strong but show no muscle definition.
Lots of research required.
