One of my fears is that I will become an invalidating know-it-all  when dealing with people facing problems I may have faced and overcome already.

It's sometimes really hard to recognize the affect of x on y and not end up invalidating someone's experience and make them feel blamed.

Truth is, x's DO affect y. It just depends on how strongly they do... and possibly about how it can be phrased so that it doesn't make people feel blamed.

Oughta think about this some more.

I am DROWNED in limited perceptions. It sucks to realize it. This is me fighting against the nature of being/existing. What's the belief at the core of it? Probably that I should be able to know it all, or shouldn't have to be wrong? Or annoyance that I can't hold on to beliefs I want to hold on to. THAT'S IT!

Also, annoyance that everything is effing only in my head.

Talking to myself. Check.
Accepting that there's stuff only in my head. Check.
Do I sound like a crazy person yet? :p

On a scale of 1-10, this is only level 2 annoyance, sometimes peaking to level 4. Subtle, low level annoyance. I seem to be trying to figure something out.

Perceptions

Life is nothing but a game of perceptions. You better believe you have the right perceptions because without it you will go crazy. But you're actually wrong. Your perceptions are too limited.

Existential loneliness, too, is an experience bounded by enabling beliefs.

Finite Suffering?

For the last little while I have been trying to understand suffering. So far, what I have understood it to be is moments of emotional or physical pain, repeated over and over. The most important part of my understanding was that these moments last just as long as physical sensation of pain. We can then extend it to psychological pain - and THAT can last a lifetime. But really, pain only lasts as long as the neurons are receiving that pain stimuli. I should point out here that electric potential in our brains (the process through which electrical signals are conveyed through a neuron) are finite, all-or-nothing bursts of electrical energy.

However, the information flow from one neuron to the next happens chemically, via hormones or neurotransmitters. The interesting thing to note about this transmission is that only so much neurotransmitters/hormones are transmitted to the next cell at once. Finite, is the word.

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Also, up until now, I equated suffering to major life events. Only recently I have really started to look at the bunch of moments of suffering that are not caused by any major life events. I will write about this more later.

I really like smart people. They sometimes blowww my mind.

P.S. I need to read up on Carl Jung.