While working on something important, I had that feeling - for which I have no name.

It went something like 'No matter how difficult this is, I am glad I get to work on it. I will willingly take on the difficulties that come with it and keep going.' It was a feeling of quiet excitement, followed by commitment.

This 'something important' has made me feel little as a person, I have thought about all the reasons why I should quit. Earlier today someone commented on how it has turned my ego into the size of a pea. Yeah. It has also made me feel more alive than I can imagine.

Of course, with all big and important feelings comes a piece of poetry or song lyrics :p, this is what followed this feeling:

(granted the poetry in this movie is a little cheesy)

Niece will be turning 2 next month :). I have tried to teach her to call me phuppo (aunt - dad's sister). She calls me bo-bo :D

And when her name is called, she responds with a very enthusiastic:

"Jiiiiiii"

Goals 2014

January 16th today and I haven't come up with a list of goals for this year. I am having a difficult time coming up with a list.

All the work I have to do is already a part of my life and is too common sensical to be put down on a list of goals.

If I have one motivation this year, it is to have some serious fun. For the first time, I am putting all the serious, practical concerns behind to prioritize some real experiences and fun. Not sure what changed. The idea that work actually never ends has made its mark. All the work that has to be done, will have to be to done. Fun and life experiences have to be prioritized. Not waiting for the future, not waiting to have achieved some of those things to live life.

Will spend time and money on living life, instead of conserving (most of it) for the serious aspects of life.

I am going to die!! That's the other idea that has coloured my thinking a deeper shade of reality. This life is all I've got and if I don't live it... If I don't live it... I have nothing to even compare that idea with!