Faw is one of my little sources of happiness. Having him in my life makes me happy.

I am actually feeling a little possessive that sis and brother in law are doing all the things for him I do/did for him :p, picking up/dropping from work/school, talking about his life stuffs etc. He's my baby. Even though he's a fully grown adult and sometimes I REALLY don't want to get out of my comfy bed to go pick him up.

He's such a cutie pie. Launches himself on my bed just because he's bored in his room. I have to kick him out sometimes because I'm working.

Even though at work I do not hear about truly traumatic life events that often, outside of work, I am not able to take in too many stories of suffering. If I do, I feel as if I am getting weaker and have to stop. Life's regular stress and traumas too get to you.

The most painful story I heard yesterday was a husband's. His wife committed suicide earlier this month, and he doesn't even know why. He heard that she was seen crying at work the day of. He thinks something must have happened at work - that bad. He was feeling guilty and feeling for his wife, feeling all the pain that she had gone through in her life. He only met her 3 years ago.

I just wanted to hug this man.

This amazing man saves the lives of others on a daily basis (not a doctor). I wish I had conveyed something to him of value, to know how much we appreciate people like him in the society and how his pain is unimaginable for me - but I did not want him to feel alone in his pain. He had yet to tell her therapist that she had passed away. My heart was breaking while I talked to this extremely soft spoken man. He had the presence of mind to get some therapeutic support so that he processes it all well.

Are we all incapable of seeing the reality for what it is? From understanding what has been said to understanding your own personal limitations to how the world works?

Of course that last one cannot be answered objectively.

Are we all in one way or another seeking clarity on the nature of reality? Is that what "growing" and learning about life is?

Forever trying to mend the gap between perception and reality.