Life seems easier. Things seem achievable.

I hope this feeling stays.

I am going to say this again.

I really, really am grateful for difficult experiences. Nothing humbles me more and makes me want to be a better person than a difficult experience.

Yes, I have yet to fully process the events of this month. Processing them is what teaches me about facets of life I know little about.

Lessons

1. Every single person on this Earth has had difficult life experiences.

My 21 year old brother consoles, "Believe me, I understand what you are going through."

He doesn't. Because he hasn't had the same experiences. But he understands what it means for life to be difficult. What "difficult" life experiences he could have had, you ask? Well, enough to make him empathetic.

2. People manipulate and cheat... and you will be on the receiving end

It will happen. If you're lucky, only a few times.

3. Because every person has had difficult experiences, everyone has even more responsibility to treat others with utmost respect.

Those who do not treat others with respect have little place in my life.

4. Waiting isn't always the best idea

Waited too long to speak your mind? The opportunity isn't yours anymore. Waiting too long to have that conversation? Hearts have been broken and unnecessary pain has been caused.

5. What people think of you matters

It matters what people think of you. That is not to say you go live life according to others. But it matters how much they like you and what they understand you to be. Reputation and good will smooth the process of being on the receiving end of opportunities.

6. People let a lot go before acting

People let a lot of things go. But it all adds up and can break the camel's back with that last one action/word. You will never know what will end up being the last straw.

Sometimes I think/read something and I feel like I am in love. This is one of those times.

I want to go through the entire research process. I am excited by it.

Cycle

Doing, engaging, achieving,
boredom, repetition, unhappiness,
growth, passion, newness,
repetition,
slowing down, stagnating.
starting over, struggling
passion, hard work,
doing, stumbling,
trying, tiring,
doing, growing,
doing, doing, doing,
boredom, repetition,
unhappiness.


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(too tired to put the thought in sentences)

Sometimes I feel like I am living life for the first time.

The trajectory seems new and unexpected. 

To be immortal is to leave something behind. Something that people appreciate for years after you.

I want to leave something behind.

Remember to evaluate
where your heart stands.
it takes little time
and even less effort
to go wrong.

There is a chance
there will be a day
you and I will realize
what we are living for
is not what we should have been living for.